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I have two things I want to blog – both have me very depressed. One is beyond sad, I may not even get to the other subject.

My oldest daughter was expecting, she was scheduled to be induced July 5 (my mom’s birthday). Her checkup on July 3rd went well, but something happened between the checkup and when she came in to be induced. When they hooked her up to the monitors no fetal heartbeat could be found. The baby was stillborn. I hurt so bad, I just want to drive to Georgia, hold my daughter and cry with her.

She thinks I’m never there for her, but I’ve been right here all along.

I’d prefer to just say “No Comment” but that’s not a fair assessment. My bowling was bad, period. I did have one 200 game – a 215. My best series was my Doubles Event – which like last year was my doubles partner’s worst – just like last year. But my doubles series was better than last year. Doubt I will bring money home this year. I do have to remember that this is a SCRATCH tournament.

On the bright side Charlotte was nice – the hotel was fabulous. Service was great almost every place we went. Ate way too much food, when I did have a chance to eat. Tournament rules prohibited the eating while bowling. That is really rough when you bowl from 11:00AM to almost 3:30PM and then don’t get out of the building until around 4:30PM.

Had a very nice stay in Asheville Saturday night. I think the best way to describe the town is “Bohemian” – it was quite the pocket of liberal, artsy-fartsy types. But the location is beautiful.

Not much has changed at the day job – still a person down and now have another one being deployed. Still have daughters that don’t speak to me…

I’m disappointed that Megan failed her class. She’ll probably be upset with me because I’ve now said this “out loud.” Especially since everyone else is giving her a hard time about it. I can still hear daughter number one getting mad at me when I discussed grades with her. “Well, I’m just not as smart as you are.” It’s not about being smart. It’s about working hard and getting your priorities straight. There are those who would say I didn’t have a life because I worked hard to do high school in three years. When I went to college, I was married with 2 children. I was also pregnant with Megan with Megan during my senior year. I went to class on a Thursday evening, Megan was born on Friday and I had to be back in class on Monday to take an exam. If I didn’t go to class I would have gotten a zero for my exam grade. Did I mention I was also working full-time too?

Megan has it made – she’s not working, she only has to go to class – she could be making great grades if she would only apply herself. Instead she makes fun of the smart person in the class – she should have been asking him for help instead of making fun of him.

I’m happy that she has a boyfriend but she needs to get her priorities straight because daddy isn’t going to be supporting her all her life unless she wants to be like her sister.

So Megan will be mad at me too.

Haven’t really heard from anybody in a while. Megan doesn’t call as often because she has a boyfriend that “loves” her. She did at least give me an update on her school situation – she had been struggling in Radiology I – she didn’t pass. So that throws her whole schedule off. She can’t take Radiology II or her Internship now. I have tried to tell her she needs to get with the school ASAP and find out what her options are. She is interested in their General Education program which I think will be excellent for her but she needs to get her head out of clouds and get her butt in gear.

I called my dad for Father’s Day – he sounded good. He didn’t say much, but that’s normal. Haven’t heard from my sister in a while either. We all lead such busy lives. I don’t know if any of my family knows that number one daughter is expecting her third somewhere around the first week in July from what I understand. I figure she is just telling everyone I’m dead since I doubt she wants to tick her father off. Obviously, she needs his money – my guess is that he is making her house payment.

I’m getting to head to Nationals – this year it’s in Charlotte. It will be split between two bowling centers – maybe I’ll make a little money again this year. We are heading out Thursday morning. I bowl team Friday afternoon and Singles & Doubles Saturday morning. Jeff’s coming along with me. He has plans to meet up with old friends that live in the area.